On the Cusp

On the feeling right before everything expands

There’s a very specific feeling I’ve been sitting in lately. It’s not excitement, exactly. Not really anxiety either. It’s something in between. Like standing at the edge of something that hasn’t fully arrived yet — but is close enough that you can feel it. Like a pull over an edge.

About two months ago, the Kundalini practitioner I follow online — the one whose program I’ve been doing every morning — added my personal Instagram.

She messaged me to say thank you for sharing about the meditations. And I had a wild idea — instead of overthinking and trying to word it correctly, I said fuck it! I’m shooting my shot. So I asked her if she’d ever want to collaborate — her company, Benshen, and my studio, WITHIN.

At the time, my studio had been open for maybe two weeks. It wasn’t fully built out. It wasn’t “established.” It was (and still is) a lil baby!

She said yes! Not only that — she offered to give everyone who participated a free month of Benshen. I remember thinking omg this is too easy!

About a month or two before this, I met Ally — the Kundalini teacher — through what can only be described as a friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend situation. We immediately clicked. Same age, similar charts (scorpio risings, capricorns placements, iykyk), similar energy.

And she loved the idea of the collaboration! So we started building it together.

Ally’s classes are incredible. Kundalini is one of those things that’s almost impossible to explain. It’s a workout but that’s not the word for it, it has meditation in it but that doesn’t fully sum it up, it’s not just a yoga class either. What it is, is something that changes you. And once you experience it, you get it.

But getting people to try it — especially in Nashville, where it’s still pretty rare — has been harder. We priced the month access in a way that felt generous. We included the Benshen membership. We shared it. And… not much happened.

So we pivoted. We made it free. And decided to absolutely blast it out into the eco chambers of the universe. Within two weeks, we had 56 sign-ups.

Fifty-six.

And then the question became: Who will actually show up? Because interest is one thing. Showing up is another.

Night 1 was last night, so maybe it’s too soon to speak, but people came out!

And they didn’t just show up — they were feeling it. Connecting with each other, being open to a new type of practice, and beginning to understand what I struggle to explain.

Seeing people experience Ally’s class inside my studio — something that, not long ago, only existed as an idea in my head — felt magical.

Ally LaForest, Kundalini teacher (among many other modalities) and Charlie.

There’s been so much momentum in the studio already! Practitioners hosting their own classes, people finding the space, and energy building.

But landing this collaboration and watching it come to life —
has felt like something different. Or as my dad would say, “good signal, Junie, good signal.”

WITHIN

And here’s the part I don’t know how to explain without it sounding dramatic:

I can feel that I’m on the cusp of something. A real expansion. Both in my work, in my income, and in my feeling of fulfillment in life. And it feels almost silly to say that, because so many incredible things have happened already.

But this feels like… the edge. Like everything up until now has been building toward, something that’s about to open. Like standing at the edge of a cliff right before you jump off — knowing you’re about to land some place wondrous.

It has been an internal battle trying not to rush the big jump and just stand here, right on the edge.

Thank you to everyone who has watched, supported, experienced, and participated in all of this! It has been so cool doing it together.

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Until next time xx

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